Warning: Contains descriptions of violence and child abuse
You may remember the name Jeni Haynes. In 2019 she made headlines for testifying against her abuser, her father. Jeni was the only person to testify against her dad; however, she took the stand six different times, as six different personalities, all of whom were abused by Richard Haynes.
The six personalities are just a small fraction of the 2,600+ personalities Jeni created to survive the abuse she had endured. Jeni took the stand to present evidence against her father as a four-year-old named Symphony, a teenager named Muscles, and a young woman named Linda among others.
‘I didn’t know that you’re only supposed to have one personality’Â
Jeni has Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is also referred to as Multiple Personality Disorder. Jeni, who was first abused by her father as a baby, used the process of dissociation to survive the years of abuse. It most likely saved her life.
“I didn’t know that you’re only supposed to have one personality. I didn’t realise that having lots of voices in your head was abnormal. But you are protecting yourself. You are protecting your soul, and that’s what I did,” Jeni writes in her new book.Â
The 2,681 different personalities she created protected her from the trauma and allowed her to remove herself from the horrid reality. Below is just a brief snippet of what she went through.
The beginning of Symphony
The abuse started young. Jeni and her family moved from the UK to Sydney in 1974 when Jeni Haynes was four years old. However, the abuse had begun before this.
In Australia, the abuse became a near-daily ritual that Jeni was forced to keep hidden from the world, including her mother and siblings.
The first personality Jeni developed was a four-year-old named Symphony. Symphony’s voice is a lot higher than Jeni’s and Jeni describes “her tone brighter, more girlish and breathless”.
“She suffered every minute of Dad’s abuse and when he abused me, his daughter Jeni, he was actually abusing Symphony,” Jeni told the BBC.
Personalities act to protect Jeni
As the years went on, Jeni (as Symphony) created other personalities to endure the abuse. Each personality that Jeni/Symphony created had a role to contain an element of the abuse. Several of her personalities were also critical in the testimony that eventually led to her father’s sentencing.
Muscles was a teenager, similar to Billy Idol, who was tall, calm and strong. He was one of the personalities who had physical evidence of the abuse.
Linda was tall and slender with a 1950s pink poodle skirt. Linda testified about the impact of this on Jeni’s schooling and relationships.
Volcano was another strong alter, dressed in black leather with bleached blond hair.
Ricky was an eight-year-old boy who wore an old grey suit with short bright red hair.
Judas looked like he was about to speak and wore school trousers and a bright green jumper.
Rick wore huge glasses, similar to those of Jeni’s father.
Every one of these alters played a critical role in helping Jeni cope with the daily abuse, something that continued until she was 11 years old.
During that time, Jeni learned how to keep herself small and silent. Her father restricted her social activities at school to minimise other adult contact and Jeni was denied medical care for her injuries from beatings and sexual abuse.Â
Calculated and planned
Jeni returned to the UK at the age of 11. Her parents divorced shortly after. Jeni reported the abuse in 2009, and ten years later, her testimonies cultivated in Richard Hayne’s conviction and jailing. Only a judge was present during the 2019 trial as the lawyers agreed the case was too traumatic for a jury.Â
Richard Haynes will remain behind bars for the rest of his life. He is considered one of the worst child abusers in Australia.
“My dad’s abuse was calculated and it was planned. It was deliberate and he enjoyed every minute of it,” Jeni told the court in a victim impact statement in 2019.
“He heard me beg him to stop, he heard me cry, he saw the pain and terror he was inflicting upon me, he saw the blood and the physical damage he caused. And the next day he chose to do it all again.”
Richard also brainwashed his daughter into thinking he could read her mind, she said. He threatened to kill her mother, brother and sister if she even thought about the abuse, let alone told them.
“My inner life was invaded by Dad. I couldn’t even feel safe in my own head,” Jeni said. “I could no longer examine what was happening to me and draw my own conclusions.”
Dissociative identity disorder saved her life
Dissociative identity disorder is often linked to extreme abuse against a child. In this instance, Dissociative identity disorder saved Jeni. Not only was she able to survive the years of abuse, but her personalities were also able to provide detailed evidence to the court.
The separate identities have helped her to preserve memories that might otherwise have been lost to trauma.
“My memories as a person with MPD are as pristine today as they were the day they were formed. Our memories are just frozen in time – if I need them, I just go and pick them up.”
While dissociated identity disorder may have helped Jeni survive, it’s also been very challenging to have thousands of voices in her head and many counsellors refused to help Jeni due to her story being unbelievable.
“We have to hide our multiplicity and strive for a consistency in behaviour, attitude, conversation and beliefs which is often impossible. Having 2,500 different voices, opinions and attitudes is extremely hard to manage.
“I should not have to live like this. Make no mistake, my dad caused my Multiple Personality Disorder.”
Jeni is able to identify when she is going to transition to a new personality, as she has a hard time concentrating before transitioning. She has even been able to publish a book through her multiple alters.
The Girl in the Green Dress is written from the perspectives of Jeni, and Jeni’s alters and is now available via Amazon.
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Helplines and specialist support services can help children who have experienced child sexual abuse or engaged in harmful sexual behaviour. These services can also help families. For immediate safety concerns or to report concerns, contact the police and child protection service in your state or territory. For a list of services, visit Raising Children.